find something to love...

I know it's easier said than done but learning to love your body is definitely a necessary quest. I returned to the gym for the first time in a very long time on Saturday. Oh God it was dreadful.

First of all my trusty gym shorts were noticeably tighter than they were when I last had them on. I ploughed on and decided that with hard work and dedication they would fit nicely again (and besides i convinced myself that everyone looks bad at the gym). I finally talked myself into doing this and I wasn't going to back out now so I clambered onto the cross-trainer with trepidation. It was not as bad as I thought, it was actually quite fun getting all sweaty listening to my ipod and just being by myself for a while. Our flat can get quite crowded at times and is nice to do things alone every now and then.

With my confidence building I thought there could be no harm done jumping on the treadmill for the last 15 minutes of my workout. Oh how I was wrong. My too tight shorts had put pressure on my thigh flab and running in front of a mirror all I could see were my legs struggling to pass each other and made sure with each stride the make a prominent jiggle just to take my self esteem down to its lowest ebb.

After the disastrous first day back at the gym I decided that the flab I had accumulated since February wont go away overnight and that I need to find something else to feel that I can focus on until my muffin top recedes back to the murky depths from whence it came.

If this wasn't enough my favourite mascara ran out and was forced to buy a far cheaper replacement because I have no money because I don't have a job. When I got it home and tried it out for the first time I was dumbfounded... I think I have pretty nice eyelashes...score! The one part of a women's body she wishes was fat and lo and behold I have pretty decent ones. Don't get me wrong I am a fan of falsies for a night out but either I have good eyelashes or the cheap mascara does wonders. I don't really care which is true but for now my lashes take my mind off my larger than life jiggly thighs and too small shorts.

So ladies I implore you to do the same, find something to keep your mind off the things you don't like and hopefully if we don't think about them for long enough we will forget about them altogether.